December 2011
13 posts
Anonymous asked: In a relationship, how do you show that you are insecure?
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False Promises
We depended on promises,
not knowing the depth of the words
under the bedtime cuddles,
intimate goodbye kisses and
well-spent hours of laughter.
.
We were young,
deluded with the future
of growing up together
and waking up
side by side each morning.
But like any other romances
that bloom through the course of summer,
we eventually caught on
that under the promises we exchanged
...
Anonymous asked: paano ka maging insecure?
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A sudden loss of carols and spirit
December 23, 2011, Friday,
Tomorrow’s Christmas Eve already, and for some reason, I’m not looking forward to it. I’m not much in a festive mood today or any days prior to this one, but it’s really sad though that I’m not feeling Christmas in any way. I used to get all excited weeks before Christmas Eve. Jumping in joy as I gaze at the stacks of gifts under our...
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“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”
– Haruki Murakami
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Nostalgia
December 18, 2011, Sunday,
I was looking around the bookstore looking for some Haruki Murakami books. Despite being broke, I was always fond of staring at books that I’ll buy someday. That habit gave me a sort of thrill and excitement.
After passing by the general fiction shelves, I realized that I was alone. I could hear the aircon running behind me, the voices of the salesladies talking, and...
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Looking for a way out
“How will we ever get out of this labyrinth of suffering?” -Alaska Young, Looking for Alaska
I spent most of the day reading Looking for Alaska. I don’t want to finish it yet, but so far, it’s wonderful, really wonderful, but no matter how beautiful the book may be, I really don’t want to finish it just yet. Maybe it’s because I’m scared on how...
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Labyrinths and Perhaps
Alaska: I'm not going to be one of those people who sits around talking about what they're gonna do. I'm just going to do it. Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia.
Miles: Huh?
Alaska: You spend your whole life stuck in a labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.
Miles: Sometimes I don't get you.
Alaska: You never get me. That's the whole point.
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Expectations
Drifting off
to space,
where I could rest,
muted from the world,
I laid on my bed,
hearing nothing
but the disappointed whispers of
tomorrow, inching in
to consume my heart and
crush my dreams.
*Got bored during Theology a while ago, so I ended up writing my very first free verse poem. I rarely write poetry, but since we’ll have a poetry writing session next week, I better write...
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Looking Forward
The sound of the waters rushing woke me up. It was morning, and I slept through the entire night laying on the grass under the sky.
I remained still, touching my lips. I could still feel him with his head on my lap and my hand on his cheek. The warmth of when our lips met was also there. I clutched my chest as I felt the sensation slipping away, slowly being replaced by loneliness.
The emptiness...
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Looking Back
I was on my way back.
The night was silent and no sound could be heard other than the monotonous tune of the mating crickets. If I remember correctly, it was right here when I confessed to her. The rain ruined my moment, but she got up to her tip-toed feet and kissed me up front. Her perfect soft lips, the aftertaste of cherry, her hand cuddling my left ear, it felt only yesterday when...